"every new begining comes from some other beginning's end." —dan wilson

make no mistake

she sheds her skin like a snake

on the dirty road to fame

—pete doherty, "there it goes (a little heartache)"

somehow here is gone.

—goo goo dolls, "here is gone"

for the zombie from my past;

that was then, and this is now. all i wanted to tell you was that the past me had also gone with all of the stupidities from the past. you once reigned, you once mattered, but time had changed and so was everything--the place where you used to be is not there anymore, and the suffocating ambiguities that you'd sent me like packages of fictional wings will now be gone, melting under the heavy shower of the acidic pitch-black rain.

what's left to do for you? mourn, perhaps--mourn, baby, mourn, because the last thing i need now is the fallout caused by the wrecked past between us. 

i'll sit here as the noises of pollution in your head tear you apart the way one shreds a rose's petals--you'd crawl like a kid in the corner of the dark room with none other than the red light in your heart to be seen. you'd sink in your sea of fantasies, aggrandizing yourself but none other but you will see.

mourn, baby, mourn.

mourn, baby, mourn.

mourn, baby, mourn.

//photography by devina

shots inspired by through the trees by ryan levine

gong li in shanghai (2010). ♥

(image credit to imdb)

i love this picture of her.

in fact, i've always loved gong li and her attitudes in movies. she always has that standoffish-lady kind of attractiveness that makes her stand out from the rest of the asian female stars in hollywood--really. (i mean zhang ziyi, maggie Q, zhang zilin, and rinko kikuchi are all undeniably beautiful and charming and talented, but gong li tops them all ;)

shanghai (2010)  is the movie i and dev have been longing to see since the day we saw the trailer. not only because the casts are great, and there's a ken watanabe there (hehe); but the storyline seems very promising, and the cinematography is great. 

note:

anyway just finished all of my end-of-term projects, as well as last crazy week where i smoked countless cigarettes to keep my head from spinning but hey... those days had already passed and i'm back to my relaxed, play-everyday state again (so is dev). we're prepared for more photo sessions and there's still one i'm about to post here in the next couple of days!

but for now, i still want to unwind a bit--still a bit tired from last saturday's ramblings.

on a side note, i've just finished reading zhou weihui's shanghai baby (1998) which is really amazing because it's blatantly honest and beautifully written. now currently reading claudia gray's stargazer and i can't seem to keep my eyes off them. it's so attractive--the storyline, the characters, and how she made them all so flesh-and-blood... just attractive!

i love the main character bianca olivier very much, and the vampire guy balthazar more (not the main character, but he's certainly the most attractive one there!).

trust me, it's certainly not twilight and gray's certainly not meyer. (i've never really liked her and her novels--they're just so unreal and i don't get all the hypes about them) and i think the evernight series should be the ones to be made into movie.

positive and negative, though--just wait until they ruin the novel's beauty with wrong casts. hehe. novels turning into movies are mostly dissatisfying--although not the boy in the striped pajamas (2008) in which most of the charms from the novel remain still. 

how are you, cool people?

sorry for the long read-- i really, really miss you guys so much!!!

recommended.

(thanks to the musings of ondo lady for the image)

after a long wait i finally managed to get my hands on this book. this book is a great, complete guide for anyone who longs to work for fashion--designers, photographers, celebrity stylists, models, and editors. this book also features great interviews with several fashion legends such as marc jacobs, karl lagerfeld, and anna wintour.  

my favorite section of the book is the index of art universities attached as a part of the appendix. i had almost burst into tears when i found the section--honestly, it's been months of struggle for me to pick a right university for me to continue my education in fashion, and the section has helped me a lot. i even had chance to discuss some of the schools with my Dad, and it was very relieving.

anyway, i'll post pictures soon. currently i'm quite occupied with end-of-term tasks, any my c++ project's due date is next wednesday. thanks for all the supports, you guys mean a lot to me!!

p.s. i plan to open a new blog focusing solely on my writing; will you guys be interested in checking it out? :)

i'm baaaack!

as i promised, here are the pictures of my arrival in BCIA:

mango cropped jacket, top, and belt/ the little things she needs scarf/ zara jeans/ aldo boots/ coach bag/ vintage dogtag necklace

//photography by oscar

thank God this airport was nowhere inside my novel, otherwise i'd spent hundreds of words trying to explain how amazing this glass-and-metal megaton building is.

//photography by me

note:

i know, i can't believe it either-- i've abandoned this blog for a whole week since i returned from china. i mean, wow, how time fleeted so fast! it felt as if it was just yesterday those utterly-detailed oriental décor of forbidden city, summer and spring palaces, the great wall, and the confident cityscape of shanghai stunned me, but i have to admit that as much as the trip had been very, very entertaining, it had also unloaded a great amount of stamina from me. 

it was summer in china and the weather was whooping hot--thirty-five degrees, even in cloudy days. i was sweating crazily despite the fact i wore tank tops and micro-shorts all the time. hell, even a simple, supposed-to-be-breezy scarf felt like a toaster attached to my neck.

still a long story to go, including this very gorgeous air macau crew named teng xin. well, he's not louis koo but still, he's really, really that handsome that i found it kind of intimidating even to ask just as simple as refilling my small glass with some more water.

hot guys always have that kind of aura that draw people closer when they're far, but the same aura deflects many of them away when they get too close. anyway, the meeting was just one of those days. everybody joked about me and him being a potentially great couple and that we should take a picture together but i'd rather be somewhere under a giant stone than running rampant with reddened face.

thank you for all of those lovely comments, i'm really glad that you like my writing in the last post; you guys have been so supportive lately, and to my favorite ladies garakami, dusk, and tamanna-- big kisses to all of you. i'm a fan of your blogs, too. anyway, there's this cool blog ctrl + ♥ i commented on this morning. she's a very talented writer. i love her!

i'll come back with more stories and holiday pics!